okay this is getting scary. we're one day away to 'home-sweet-home'. and i haven't even pack a single bit. neither have daniaal. and we're not worried. thats worrying me.

we've been doing some last minute dash in terms of work, reports and clear-ups. intentions were made clear, behaviours were changing, uncertainty were certain, feet were eager to run home.

at the end of it all, i've seen so many perspective of life. from the first five struggling weeks, i've seen what it seems to be the darkest days yet which vividly reminds me of hope when you feel there is none left. the other 12 weeks was working hard and proving everyone wrong.

three partial gene, one full-length, one satisfied son.

where the angels undercover curse our names.

random pictures from Pha Ngam Trip.

they say history will find us on the last train.

we're five days away to home. and for the past week, dan and i have been exchanging greetings as such, "aku tak sabar nak balik bodo!"

which literally means "i can't wait to get home, stupid!"

obviously, we're trying our best to hush the urge to get home. our drives are channeling to the last work day.

we came back from the trip to prachinburi in the late afternoon. with 5 others from starch biosynthesis lab. since the trip was made mandatory, i have no complaints. slept alot throughout the trip, journey to and back, something i never get to do much here.

well, on the way back, in one of those stopovers, i saw one whole stack of rose-red water apples. i was tempted, and there, stated "5(something in thai) 100".

assuming 5 water apples for 100baht, i demanded for 5. to my surprise, the lady gleefully packed 2 big bags for me. in confusion, she showed me on the weighing scale, there you go, 5 KG. for 100 baht. a few cents short of 5 singapore dollars.

i was surprise, still am. i was very skeptical about it until i grabbed a bite. it was too sweet to be true. 5 kg for 100 baht. how am i gonna eat em all?

pictures later.

lets go back to the middle of day that starts it all.

i was so high i chance upon the cutest baby in the universe.
you'll agree.

if only time flew by like doves.

why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday? keeping it brief.

irregular sleeping cycle, piling amount of work, reports. the project is undergoing a transition to expression analysis, the last part of the project. apparently, the project we're doing here in thailand are master degree level. well, i can only say on behalves of daniaal and koktong for the rest seem to be more relaxed.

there's just too much hiccups throughout the whole journey of completing the project. gleefully, i already have one full-length sequence with my name written all over it. daniaal has a few too. thats the good part. praise to god.

the ugly side, we're both losing hair, sanity, brain cells, drive, motivation, faith, strength, will and on top of it all, sleep. the mad scientist image is slowly wrapping me up. there's unexplained angst, fear and grief in us.

there's literally little space to even be thinking of singapore, home. though i can't wait for this to end. i went through soooooooo much, so thick. from the dark alleys to mounting pressures. this is getting depressing but there's always hope. even the slightest of hopes, i can't let astray.

like a dark knight riding his horse to nowhere, where the air he breathes leads him. looking back, he has no regrets.

you can sleep in the coffin and the past ain't through with you.