so there you go, the first today. the first time i saw hell broke loose and my supervisor turned into a furious yelling monster. without a doubt, it was my fault. i forgot to include something important into the media that i've been using for a week. she kept insisting that "this is serious!". sometimes, i just couldn't be bothered with what she was trying to say.

she kept asking whether i put in the 2,4-D, a growth regulator. i said, i can't remember, cause i really can't. a week ago, i did so many media preparation and other shit.

Supervisor: did you put in the 2,4 - D?

Me: i can't remember.

Supervisor: how can you not remember? its only a week. i am older than you and you cannot remember things you did last week? how old are you?

Me: i'm nineteen, and human.

Supervisor: ..

if someone can brag about holding a PHD! i can brag about having balls. having balls to stand up and carry on doing what i'm doing.

so i had to redo everything, re-subculture everything using a new media. on top of that, i had to prepare 4L of MS(B5), 5L of Milieu 0.75- and subculture transformed plants.

so here i am, 9:11pm, in the lab. doing my research while waiting for the autoclave to be done. i am literally shivering on an empty stomach. well, not literally empty, there's chicken rice from lunch which i think, turned into something else by now.

a stain that never comes off the sheets.